I came acrossed a post on Facebook that had the link to my blog page. I was surprised because it has been so long that I forgot I even had a blog. I reviewed my past blogs and it didn't surprise me that they were about weight loss (that seems to be a constant struggle for me). I thought it would be a good time to update this blog.
I am afraid that all that hard work all those years ago were for nothing because I failed in my weight loss journey. Last I weighed myself I was 400 pounds (I just can't get over that). I am having a lot of health issues and now I am going through Premenopause. Back in 2012 I fell at Walmart and dislocated my knee cap and it seems my health just started going down hill after that. I learned that I had degenerative arthritis throughout my whole body. A concern because of my age. The doctor said I was to young to have this, that it is usually in older people. I was told it was because of my weight but this was back when I was losing weight. Also I have learned of other young people who have this that are skinny and in shape. I hate when doctors blame everything on weight as if people in shape don't have health issues. I am not saying that my weight isn't a factor because it is but it's not the cause for everything. Anyway, moving on, a couple of years ago I thought I was having a heart attack and ended up in the emergency room. Turns out I was having a gall bladder attack and had to have surgery to remove my gall bladder. I was told that I had gall stones the size of golf balls. Last year I learned that I had a crushed vertebrae which was contributing to my back pain. The sad part that wasn't even why I went to the doctor. I was having pains in my side and wasn't sure why, the doctors just said it was probably muscle spasms and gave me a med for the pin that they said was for anxiety. Now a days I hurt all over and there are days I can hardly move.  I know something has got to give but I can't afford to go to the doctor but I know what they will tell me, I have to lose weight that seems to be their answer for everything. However, this time I can't help but agree with them. I know I need to lose this weight and keep it off but I'm just not sure how when I can barely move.
So my weight and health struggles aren't the only things that are going on in my life. In my past blogs I mentioned my parents, especially my mom. Sadly to say they have both passed on. My mom in February 2015 and my dad in September 2015. Both due to health issues but my mom was so unexpectedly. On brighter a brighter note, I got married in October of 2015 to a wonderful man. Oh and that little eight year old baby boy is now a freshman in high school and taller than me. Well I am going to get some rest because today is an off day health wise.